Ready to go!

Ready to go and all fired up, but no idea which direction I'm heading. Interesting I've had this feeling many times in my life. No, I'm not confused lost or otherwise loosing it, I just have that feeling of wanting to make a difference. I probably will.  It might be subtle, you may never notice, but I will make a difference in a small way. Not unlike you, you will make a difference too.  Of course the differences we make will be unlike each others. Yours may be profound and mine just anecdotal. Either way its another great day, to move forward, inspire someone, love someone and make a difference.
This video inspired me.

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Fiona

"I want it now!" and Microwave lives!

"I want it now" is a common sentence in our home which spoken mostly with a loud voice and with command! My response is usually always under my breath "whatever" is what I would like to say. However I refrain myself and put my gentle motherly voice on and return with "sweetie that's not a nice way to ask". And then quietly bang my head against the wall and wonder how my children turned out this way!

I also found myself tonight looking at the bath and thinking holy cow how did it get so dirty so fast, and having a minor temper tantrum in the bathroom by myself and saying I want it cleaned NOW. I do want a lot now, in fact there were so many things today that I just wish I had now, completed now, organized now and so on.

So now when I look around at world its no surprise that we are bombarded with events, adds, commercials etc "happening now", "get it now", "save now".

It is no wonder when we are pregnant that we stay on this track of "I want it now", we are like a steam engine on a track at high speed. "I want to know the sex of the baby now", " I want to give birth now", "I want breastfeeding to work now", we demand and command all of these things with perhaps a slight disregard of our powerlessness in all of it. The process takes time, patience and a little more patience. How do I know? Because I lived it and now I see it. No instant microwave life for me. Besides I only want the stuff I don't enjoy to be instant the rest I would like to enjoy at a leisurely pace. Huh! I should know better.

Mothering all five!

Is there a time when you just let go. I wonder if my mother had to teach herself to slowly let go of all the mothering aspects of me. As we now know mothering is ever changing and we must roll with it or fall over if we don't keep up. Another school year has begun with little enthusiasm for school, interests always seem to lay elswhere. Scattered boys and young men, turning corners faster than their minds (or maybe its me) can keep up. I expect another year of deep thought, boy questions and perhaps a better understanding of where my mothering will start and end!

Being Alone!

Do we need time alone?

What does that look like to you? Can you be alone?

I'm wondering if its healthy to have alone time? I think I would really enjoy it but when it boils down to it could I actually do it. One hour a day alone with no children no husband no phones and omgosh no computer. Could it impact my health enough that it would be worth while and how do I do this without a long term investment?
Well this project already seems to have too many questions and not enough answers. Well lets see can I put an extra hour in my day? Yes Of course it will mean getting up before everyone, and leaving the laptop off hmmmmm.

Ok I'll try for a week and see if I "feel" the health benefits. It will all begin tomorrow and PS I won't tell the family because they already think I'm weird!! Updates will follow.